I really don’t share things like this often because this blog is all about positivity, self development, and motivation… but I am not feeling any of those things right now. I am going through a lot of foolishness and most of it is my fault and I’m not sure what to do.
Well, that’s not true. I know what to do I’m just not sure I’ll have time to do it.
My biggest flaw is procrastination. I ALWAYS wait until the last second to do important things. For example, as you all know I’m a daycare teacher. Well, I kept putting off getting my TB test (i didn’t know until I started here that TB was still a relevant issue) and my medical. The things holding me back from getting these was getting my ID.
I know, I know. You don’t have an ID? Yes, well I no longer have a valid license due to fees that will take me awhile to pay off and since my wallet was stolen, that kept me from being able to just order another license. SO, why not just get a State ID? I’ll tell you why. Because to get a state ID you need your social security card… I don’t have that because it was also in my wallet (didn’t know you weren’t supposed to keep it in your wallet until after the incident) Or ANY picture ID. To get my social security card they told me I need picture ID… do you see my dilemma? It’s a lot of complications and I have been struggling trying to handle it.
I’ve learned recently of some secondary things the social security office might take, but I have to have all my info in for filing at my job by January 3rd!!! I’m scrambling and second guessing if I’ll be able to do ALL of these things by then. I’m so stressed about it I can’t even explain it properly!
Then, to make matters worse I got my utility bill and since me and my beloved are constantly changing the thermostat because we can never agree, it was SKY HIGH. Which tanks my abilities to be able to really do anything fun for New Years!
I am not depressed. I’m trying not to allow myself to sink into depression. I don’t have time for depression. I have things to do. I have to get these things in order and FAST. It’s making me want to cry, but I have to stay focused.
Sorry, this was kind of a rant. I just needed to let it out.
I’m remaining positive and hopefully by the time this post actually publishes (it was written a week in advance) I’ll be halfway through with the things I need to do. I am hopeful and speaking positive things into existence!
Just pray for me and send positive vibes my way! Thanks for reading my motor mouth rant!
Until next time…
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